Sorry for the delay with this post, but my dad was in town for the holidays so all my time and attention was focused on family! It was a wonderful time together, and I’m truly grateful and blessed for everything in my life right now. We had a perfect 1st holiday dinner in our new home and it was everything I could have asked for. We made lots of new happy memories and I know my mom was with us in spirit, smiling big and admiring our meal!
This post, which is the last chapter of my “book” could not come at a more fitting time.
A lot of things are coming to an end this week.
First of all, it’s the end of the year. A crazy emotional year with plenty of ups and downs, happy and sad tears, love, loss, and everything in between. It’s ending much better than it started and I truly believe that everything happens for a reason and that it was all meant to be in some crazy way. I’m going into 2019 with a new outlook on life, a grateful soul and a peaceful mind.
Second, it’s the end of my Whole30 streak. I did 3 rounds (90 days), with a reintroduction week in between each one. It was exactly what I needed to get my mind and body back to a healthy and focused place. I feel like myself again, after almost a year of letting my stress, anxiety, and depression derail me a bit. I was scared for my mental and physical health for a while, but a lot of hard work, dedication, and determination has gotten me to a much healthier place recently. Eating real food and learning about the importance of nutrition and wellness has forever changed me and my binge eating recovery experience. I will heal my body with food just as I hurt it with food for a long time. Funny how that comes full circle.
Third, it’s the end of my book. I have shared a relatively short but semi detailed story of my life with binge eating disorder for the world to see. It wasn’t easy, but it’s the best decision I ever made. I feel so much more confident and sure of myself and my goals after telling my story. I am so happy that I finally found the courage to start this blog and website to begin working towards my future aspirations.
I’ve been telling my story from the past to the present, and I’m finally at the point where I’ve reached present day. From now on, my life “chapters” will be happening in real time, and I plan to continue sharing my journey through recovery in much detail, just not in chapter book form anymore. My posts will still relate to my binge eating recovery, but also mixed in with some general health and wellness content as well. You can expect recipes, rants about my opinion on various health related topics, nutrition education, new things in the wellness world I am learning about, and all things eating disorder recovery.
The new year will bring many new and exciting challenges for me. I will soon be applying to be a Whole30 coach, and I’ll bring you guys along for that ride. It’s a long process, and I don’t even know if I’ll be accepted, but I’m going to do everything I can to make it happen, no matter how much more work it takes! It’s a huge goal of mine, and I’m determined to help others through the amazing Whole30 program, just as my coach and the program has helped me.
I also have another exciting challenge… on January 29th, I’ll be taking my ACE Health Coach certification exam. I started my certification process in July, and I gotta be honest, I’m terrified to take this test. There’s a lot of detailed content and I’ve always been a horrible test taker. To ensure I am able to devote enough time to studying, I will be taking a break from the blog until after my test. Maybe a post here or there if I find time, but my regular schedule of 2 posts a week will not be happening for the month of January. It’s not really how I want to start the year with the blog, but I just need to focus all of my energy on studying and prioritize my time. I know it will be worth it in the end!
This year has been monumental in my growth as an adult, a wife, a daughter, a sister, a relative, a friend, and all the other roles I play in life. Every day that I wake up, life without my mom gets a tiny bit easier, but I will forever have an aching heart. What I have learned though is that it’s ok to miss her. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to not feel happy all the time. Losing her has helped me realize what is truly valuable in life. I think I took a lot of things for granted before she passed, but not anymore.
Gratitude is a feeling I have dove deep into exploring these past few months. My mindfulness practice has completely changed me for the better, and it will be my focus and theme for 2019. Journaling, meditation, and positive thinking is my new norm. No more dwelling on the past. No more feeling sorry for myself and getting lost in a continual cycle of bingeing, cravings, restricting, and negative self talk.
Although my journey is just in the early stages, I feel I have already come a very long way. This may be the end of my “Book In A Blog” series, but it’s just the beginning of many great things to come. I write every morning in my journal about my future self as if it’s already happened. It’s the best way to start the day, and since I share basically all my other personal thoughts and feelings on here, I may as well end my book with my “future self” declarations so you can all see what I am working towards from now on. I fully intend on them all becoming a reality one day, no matter how long it takes. I encourage each and every one of you to try this for yourself. You have no idea how good it can make you feel and how much it can push you to continue working towards your goals on a daily basis.
- I do not binge anymore. I have complete control and understanding of my thoughts and urges.
- My health coaching business pays the mortgage.
- My blog is on the first page of google.
- I have 10,000 Instagram followers.
- I am a Whole30 AND ACE Certified Health Coach.
- I change people’s lives through my blog and my work.
- I am an exceptional wife and mother.
- I am the most positive person I know.
- I am at my healthy natural size.
- I love myself unconditionally.
So there it is… future me! Those are my goals for 2019 and beyond. I will continue to write them down every morning as if they have already happened, and it they do eventually happen, I’ll find something else to write for the more distant future.
I want to thank all of you for taking the time to read my blog and provide me with amazing support and kind words of encouragement and shared feelings. I know there are at least a few of you out there that are going through some similar struggles in life, and I hope I am providing some helpful content for you to relate to.
My ultimate goal is to be able to help others in their own health journey, but I figured I need to start with sharing my own first.
So cheers to the new year, new beginnings, new challenges, and new chapters. I promise I’ll be back in February with updates on my health coaching status and ready to crank out the posts weekly again!
I wish you all a Happy New Year!